Update

 After a horrific incident that I hope was his rock bottom, my son is now in recovery. 

We know that with alcoholism, it's a long road ahead. I am thankful that he has a team of folks helping him to take one day at a time. 

After feeling like my world was spiraling, I found and continue to find solace in my Lord and Savior Jesus. He also led me to Alanon. 

Alanon has taught me healthy detachment. Alanon has taught me about enabling, dependency, and that alcoholism is a family disease because it affects all of us. 

I would encourage anyone who is affected by a friend or family member dealing with alcoholism to RUN and find an Alanon meeting. Many cities offer in person meetings. I live in the Kansas heartland and my little town has one in person meeting per week. So I often enjoy participating in online Alanon meetings, which are round the clock. 

The mother in me wishes that I lived closer to my son.

 I want to see about him. I want to lay eyes on him. I want to make sure he is OK. 

But interacting with other parents and loved ones has taught me that even if I were right there with him, I can't control him nor anyone else. I can only control my actions and reactions. 

I have a lot to learn about the 12 steps, but I am willing. I want to be supportive and I need to learn how to support him in healthy ways.

To find an Alanon meeting, please visit the link below: 

https://al-anon.org/al-anon-meetings/find-an-al-anon-meeting/

Prayer: Thank You, God, for life, strength and courage. Please bless all of the parents who have a child dealing with addictive behaviors. Show us boundaries, and teach us unconditional love. In the name of Jesus, Amen.